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bloodyboop
Sorry to anyone reading this lol, i've been inactive lately due to mantal and physical health issues oof ;3;
but i'm here now and all you need to know is I got really obsessed with Dave Strider after checking out homestuck lately and that my room is stinky so i went to another one so i could relax ^>^
I'm laying down on the couch rn and it's causing me to reflect a little
See I detemine phases in my life by whatever my interests are and lately i've been wanting to make my life more "aesthetic" and dream like so i set up a schedule for cute things i like, leaving the rest of the day for other stuff after! Because of "personal" urges I ended up starting my lifestye schedule late so now i decided to just do the things ive been putting off this week lol
Anywho I've recognized two aesthetics or "auras" within me, my niche kawaiicore girlypop soul and my sexy gamerbro soul that i think kinda reflects my desire to hang out with non shitty men lol
cookies and milk vs hot chips and slim jims basically, compare and contrast for a fresh perspectve on the things you love, they strengthen each other!!
i like both of them and i think its fun contrasting the different vibes associated with them as well as girl vs guy culture
on youtube i cultivated one of my accounts to be hypersecific and only show me DEEP obscure cute things and on the other ones i just watch whatever i want!! if you just let yourself run wild online you tend to gravitate towards whatever is mildly popular though and for cute things i wanted to find something SPECIAL something for me, a hidden gem that nobody knew that i could drown myself in and buddy I DUG DEEP
after a while of restrictng my account i found a lot of cute stuff that suited me in a way that was personal, fit like a glove!!
To give a clear image my feed mostly has denpa music, giny pig vids, gaopowerroo, kawaii room vids, otaku history vids (niche), and a lo of cute cozy stuff in general!!
I even found an anime SO OBSCURE that it took me TWO DAYS to find the english dub ANYWHERE online lol, luckily its archived now on my drive and ill crossload it onto my microsdcard soon!!
I feel SO proud of myself for this lol
Most of the anime i have archived are either stuff recognized on futaba that i learned about on youtube (tied to otaku culture) or stuff from anime planet that caught my eye that put me in a chill casual sweet state of mind, glitter sparkle and self indulgence without worldly harm!!
my dream anime are as follows (saved and non saved)
Happy Kappy (most treasured!!)
Mewkledreamy
Crayon kingdom
moetan (thats more for the "cons" of otaku culture but i dont mind)
twin angel paradise (alica my beloved)
Di gi charat (most chill one)
happy happy clover (has denpa energy but without fanservice)
Okojo san (idk i just vibe with it, it kinda crosses the borders between guyish and girlish and makes me so happy and resonates with me)
I also have a lot of games on my computer but its less ACTIVELY SELECTED based on aesthetics (although some def are) and it's more like games i like that just kinda happen to add some flavor to my computers aesthetic
like a game like fear and hunger kinda adds something to a sugary dark dream no? idk the two paired together makes me FEEL something and relax and resonate with my computer and aesthetic more
for some reason a game like hunger fits right in, its similar to the nostalgia of going to church in a way
although it doesnt make sense it fits right in and makes my collection feel comeplete like it wouldnt be the same without it!!
I'll talk about my anime preferences and menta categories a bit more later, i gotta end it off here and make a part 2 follow up to this post because thinking about the gamer bro culture and aura that i brought up makes me horny OOF, wanna take a break from that lol (cuddling a nonchalant gamer bro who i can tak about personal stuff with who is also 1% girly personality wise/ kinda soft sounds SO appealing to me rn lol (not a call to hit on me btw most guys gross me out)(do you see why i like dave strider now? lol))
but i'm here now and all you need to know is I got really obsessed with Dave Strider after checking out homestuck lately and that my room is stinky so i went to another one so i could relax ^>^
I'm laying down on the couch rn and it's causing me to reflect a little
See I detemine phases in my life by whatever my interests are and lately i've been wanting to make my life more "aesthetic" and dream like so i set up a schedule for cute things i like, leaving the rest of the day for other stuff after! Because of "personal" urges I ended up starting my lifestye schedule late so now i decided to just do the things ive been putting off this week lol
Anywho I've recognized two aesthetics or "auras" within me, my niche kawaiicore girlypop soul and my sexy gamerbro soul that i think kinda reflects my desire to hang out with non shitty men lol
cookies and milk vs hot chips and slim jims basically, compare and contrast for a fresh perspectve on the things you love, they strengthen each other!!
i like both of them and i think its fun contrasting the different vibes associated with them as well as girl vs guy culture
on youtube i cultivated one of my accounts to be hypersecific and only show me DEEP obscure cute things and on the other ones i just watch whatever i want!! if you just let yourself run wild online you tend to gravitate towards whatever is mildly popular though and for cute things i wanted to find something SPECIAL something for me, a hidden gem that nobody knew that i could drown myself in and buddy I DUG DEEP
after a while of restrictng my account i found a lot of cute stuff that suited me in a way that was personal, fit like a glove!!
To give a clear image my feed mostly has denpa music, giny pig vids, gaopowerroo, kawaii room vids, otaku history vids (niche), and a lo of cute cozy stuff in general!!
I even found an anime SO OBSCURE that it took me TWO DAYS to find the english dub ANYWHERE online lol, luckily its archived now on my drive and ill crossload it onto my microsdcard soon!!
I feel SO proud of myself for this lol
Most of the anime i have archived are either stuff recognized on futaba that i learned about on youtube (tied to otaku culture) or stuff from anime planet that caught my eye that put me in a chill casual sweet state of mind, glitter sparkle and self indulgence without worldly harm!!
my dream anime are as follows (saved and non saved)
Happy Kappy (most treasured!!)
Mewkledreamy
Crayon kingdom
moetan (thats more for the "cons" of otaku culture but i dont mind)
twin angel paradise (alica my beloved)
Di gi charat (most chill one)
happy happy clover (has denpa energy but without fanservice)
Okojo san (idk i just vibe with it, it kinda crosses the borders between guyish and girlish and makes me so happy and resonates with me)
I also have a lot of games on my computer but its less ACTIVELY SELECTED based on aesthetics (although some def are) and it's more like games i like that just kinda happen to add some flavor to my computers aesthetic
like a game like fear and hunger kinda adds something to a sugary dark dream no? idk the two paired together makes me FEEL something and relax and resonate with my computer and aesthetic more
for some reason a game like hunger fits right in, its similar to the nostalgia of going to church in a way
although it doesnt make sense it fits right in and makes my collection feel comeplete like it wouldnt be the same without it!!
I'll talk about my anime preferences and menta categories a bit more later, i gotta end it off here and make a part 2 follow up to this post because thinking about the gamer bro culture and aura that i brought up makes me horny OOF, wanna take a break from that lol (cuddling a nonchalant gamer bro who i can tak about personal stuff with who is also 1% girly personality wise/ kinda soft sounds SO appealing to me rn lol (not a call to hit on me btw most guys gross me out)(do you see why i like dave strider now? lol))
